I guess I should post something. It’s been a while. I’ve started too many posts like this but the circumstances are different this time around.
If you aren’t on Instagram, you might have missed the news that my mom passed away in an incredibly brutal way a couple of months ago. (Damn, almost 2 months already. It feels like it was yesterday.)
We were incredibly close. She was even a tester for my cookbooks. I think the only two or three recipes she didn’t test for me where those with ingredients she couldn’t locate.
I have always dreaded her leaving us forever, to the point of (TMI and nobody’s business really, but whatever) suffering major depressive episodes because of that concept. And now it’s here. As expected, grief is a MFing rollercoaster from hell.
So now you know the reason behind the hiatus. I’m trying to keep myself busy (flailing about, being angry, sobbing uncontrollably, hanging in there, lather/rinse/repeat), so there might be some updates soon. Or not. I don’t know, I’m not sure of anything, and I’m too numb still to care much about it either. Mom is gone and I will never, ever get to cook with her again, laugh with her again, or even see her eat her favorite cake again. God that is bleak. As well as possibly the most personal post I’ve ever written here.
But yeah. Hi. Hello to you. And au revoir, Mamounette.
(I was going to use a gloomy image to match the mood for this one but decided that no. She would want happy. On pleure pas, hein dis? On pleure pas. ♥)